Recently, my mind has been all over the place. I’ve had so
much going on- changes, transitions, new school year, new activities, new time
schedule, and then a broken into house. And I will honestly tell you that
although some of these things came with excitement, ALL of them came with a bit
of worry. My attitude from the past couple weeks has been one of increasing
fear…
“This class is going to be impossible to make an A in.” “How
am I going to have time to do all of this school work and still do other
things?” “What about after graduation?” “Am I going to find a job?” “Where are
Loren and I going to live?” “What about all the wedding details?” “Are people
going to try and break into our house again?” “Did they see something else they
want to come back for?” “Were they watching us when we left the house?” “What
about all of the schoolwork I had on my old computer?” “What if we’re in the
house when someone tries to come in?”
And then thankfully, the Lord took over. I was constantly
reminded that “the Lord, our God, is ever faithful.” This period of waiting to
see what the Lord has planned for the future is a time when I can draw even
closer to Him. After all, that is what He desires. “Find rest, O my soul, in God
alone; my hope comes from him.” –Psalm 62:5. I need not worry about whether or
not Loren and I will find a place to land because I trust in the Lord, and HE
HAS A PLAN. I don’t need to stress over the details of schoolwork, graduation,
and the wedding because I trust in the Lord, and HE HAS A PLAN. I should not be
living in constant fear over another house break-in because I trust in the
Lord, and HE HAS A PLAN.
“I will send my messenger ahead of you, who will prepare
your way.” –Mark 1:2
His plans for my life are so much better than anything I
could come up with on my own, and I have seen evidence of that in so much of my
life already! All worry, doubt, and fear can be pushed away because “the God of
angel armies is always by my side!” How awesome is that?! How blessed am I?! And
how blessed are you too if you can also rest in that assurance?!
So here in this time of waiting for whatever the Lord is
going to do next, I can prepare myself. I am preparing for Him to tell me to
move. Not move as in pack up and head to another country, but move as in taking
a step of faith to the next thing He wants me to do. I am preparing for
everything to come in my senior year at UGA, tough classes, interactions with my
students, continued growing friendships, new friendships, campus ministries. I
am preparing for a career, wherever it might be, that the Lord will be able to
use me in bringing people closer to Him. I am preparing for marriage, trying to
further understand what it looks like to be wife that fully supports and
encourages her husband as they seek after the Lord together. So here’s some
food for thought as this question was a big one for me… what are you preparing
for? What are you spending time worrying about that you can be spending time in
preparation for instead?
I’ll close in this- the Lord is unchanging. The promise is
made in Hebrews 13:8, “Jesus Christ is the same yesterday and today and
forever.” This is something I have to remind myself of constantly. I think my
fear and worry of things derives from the fact that I lose sight of this truth.
It is me that is changing and trying to plan out the things to come so
precisely. The Lord is unchanging. He had a plan for my life yesterday, He has
the same one today, and He will hold true to that great plan forever.
Lord, help me to
always remember that you are ever-faithful and never-changing. You will not
delay. You are my ever-present help in times of trouble. You are my refuge and
strength always.
God bless you guys! Oh, and it's FINALLY gameday!! GO DAWGS!
