Dangerous words. Lyrics
by Hillsong United. The most popular worship song of 2015 is a very meaningful
cry to out God. It's about wanting to be in a place where you literally have no
other choice but to trust him. It's about asking the Holy Spirit to lead you to
a place much farther than your feet would ever set foot by your own choice.
Every christian around the nation has been singing these words endlessly. But I
have an honest question for you, brothers and sisters...
Do you really mean
that? Do you really, truly want that?
I know that I didn't. Being
outside of my comfort zone is one of the toughest things for me. I am extremely
afraid of change, and I like very much to have a routine and act within those
limits. I cannot count the number of times that I lifted my hands to the Lord
as I sang these famous words. "Spirit, lead me where my trust is without
borders. Let me walk upon the waters, wherever you would call me." But I
never expected the pain, suffering, and fear that came along with the Lord
fulfilling this request. If you are going to be in a position where you are
trusting the Lord without any borders, you are almost always going to be in a
place where you have no other choice. You see, as sinners, our hearts are not
always 100% committed to where the Lord wants us at the moment- what we say,
what we do, what we think. We aren't puppets. The Lord allows us to make our
own choices, and even as a committed believer, we still mess up. So even though
I continuously asked the Lord to "take me deeper than my feet could ever
wander," I wasn't really ready to do that. But I asked, and he answered.
When Dad has his accident back in December, I remember feeling completely
helpless. No matter how much I wanted to, I could not do anything about the
fact that he was paralyzed. The doctors were constantly telling us all of the
things he wouldn't be able to do again, and there was nothing we could do about
it. I had no choice in the matter, no way to fix anything, no path to make life
normal again, and absolutely no borders on trusting in the Lord. The Lord had
led me there. I asked him to take me into the great unknown, farther than I
would ever dare to go myself. Y'all, I would have never in my lifetime asked
for this much uncertainty. I have struggled for a long time with fear- in so
many different ways. The last thing I wanted was to endure the greatest fear I
have ever felt. But I had no other choice. Trusting wholly and completely in
the Lord was the only option I had. There was no way that my sinful heart could
twist this to give me even a little bit of worldly comfort. Knowing that my
Savior is in control now and forever, and that this earth is just the slightest
glimpse of eternity, that is where my hope lies. It’s being so uncomfortable with
where you are (physically or emotionally) that you finally surrender to the
fact that Jesus Christ is the one and only thing that can bring your heart
peace. He is the only One that can save you from drowning. None but Jesus. And
I never wish that kind of pain and unrest on anyone, but at the same time, I
also kind of do.
“But he said to me, ‘My
grace is sufficient for you, for my power
is made perfect in weakness.’ Therefore
I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ’s power
may rest on me. That is why, for Christ’s sake, I delight in weaknesses, in
insults, in hardships, in persecutions, in difficulties. For when I am weak, then I am
strong.” -2 Corinthians 12:9-10
So I challenge you to
think about this song of prayer that you’re singing. Are you ready for what
this means? Do you honestly want the Lord to take you to this place? If you do-
and I pray your heart gets there- be ready for a wild ride. A painful,
difficult, fulfilling, rewarding, wild ride.
“And my faith will be made stronger in the presence of
my Savior…”
